True Seeing

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the curtain that I peer through is Ivory

not white-

 so when your legs tremble

in your back’s lonely slouch,

I see in them

the earthiness of light brown. And you are

  a little biege feather

quivering in anticipation of the morning breeze.

And this

and this

 is more soothing

than the truth.

“Through the Window” by Angie Hoover-Hillhouse

Artwork: The Velvet Darkness of his Mind by Morgan Kendall

Resist Energy: Lust

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that touch of yours is as 

dangerous as

I’d expected.

— timid hands begging to be held,

stroked,

loved

in a lightless room where

no one

can hear our thoughts and

my weakness is concealed.

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And I know that when I do

press your gentle palm  against my own  for the first time

I will feel too much to think at all.

about infidelity-

about identity-

about selfishness–

and I will have to swallow

that dripping desire

that I try to

ignore

“Restraint” by Angie Hoover-Hillhouse

Artwork: Self-reflection by Jenn Mann & Flux by Sarah Cannon

Maybe, like alchemy

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there are different ways to concoct a love.

Recipes (Mix one or more, and let simmer – longer for more flavor):

– A brief encounter with a person of beauty, whom you cannot have.

– A friendship that roots like oak, bearing understanding and acceptance.

– Exceptional physical chemistry which dares to maintain despite all else, and which excites curiosity.

– Respect that is reciprocated.

– A requited longing.

– Laughter that grows, not diminishes.

– Mutual goals and complimentary talents, resulting in a smart partnership.

– An adhering to a set of ideals which render love and commitment the only option.

– A drug you find in each other.

– Gratitude so deep you would give all of yourself to repay, but it isn’t enough.

– Being overpowered – for once – and liking it.

– A taste for something you cannot get elsewhere

“Maybe, like alchemy” by Vanessa Cate

Artwork: htrspltn by Filmout

Thoughts on Blonde

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What is it about

fair blonde hair

that makes me feel less nervous?

Whether it be warm and gooey

like honey

or pale

and soft like

lemonfeathers,

it always baths my mind in

calm.

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 So-

just before

the daylight dies

–just before the dawn of dreams

I wish for a woman

with locks of light

to make my night as warm as

tea.

” I wish for a Woman” by Angie Hoover-Hillhouse

Artwork: Emotional  Ups and Downs & Fogpak #3 by Filmout

In the Obscuring Mist

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I kiss the air for she is me.

In the darkness there’s a body there.

Sultry night on top of me.

I hold myself — I kiss the air.

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My body pale make love to thee.

You blind me with black widow hair.

You blind my eyes — I cannot see.

I hold myself and kiss the air.

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You seduce with trickery.

You trick me with your shadow snare.

I bare my soul for you to see —

Alas that there is no one there.

“Untitled” by Vanessa Cate

Artwork by Hugo Barros, Louis Riley, and Random Dan; click on photos for more information